I Have A Problem / Thoughts On My Life - When Will I Stop Making Videos & Choose A New Creative Path
Some Thoughts
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welcome everyone out of the woo here as
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a recording of this thursday march 24th
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2022. it's about 5 30 p.m a little later
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in the day than i normally
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start my videos but just busy doing a
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few things including catching up on some
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sleep
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i have been pretty busy
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since well before new year's
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but since new year's till now
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haven't missed a day of uploads i kind
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of want to talk about
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how i probably should take a day off
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and i use that word loosely because i do
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not punch
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a time clock i'm not working a
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traditional style job
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but it does kind of take a toll on you
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after a while when you do the same thing
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each and every day
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without a day of rest
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and i feel like maybe i should take a
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day off here but i probably won't let's
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be up i probably
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i'll probably keep the tradition
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the 2022 tradition going but i'm gonna
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ride my bike around
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it possibly could rain it's already
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rained a little bit it might rain on me
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i'm just gonna
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have a bike ride a little ride and talk
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around celebration florida i'm inviting
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you
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to join me probably don't even need
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these off
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but i'm wearing them
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shall you
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okay i'm taking these off heck
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sand sunglasses it is really interesting
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the groove that i get myself into force
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of habit if you want to call it that
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just basically muscle memory as far as
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waking up every day filming something
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coming up with a video sometimes
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sometimes something very content driven
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and then other times just to keep the
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routine going something just like this
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where it's just kind of just here i am
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riding a bike
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and
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living life and trust me i completely
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can recognize that the home style
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videos you know home style blow some
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birds
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elusive behind the the shrubs the hedges
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i can completely acknowledge the fact
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that
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i know when i'm at home
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that the videos are a little bit
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different vibe
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you know when i'm rolling through
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central florida
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central florida type of videos
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but i kind of feel that breaks up the
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monotony of
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road trips and travel a lot of road
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trips and travel are happening soon
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i'm guessing
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april 10th 11th or 12th don't hold me to
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those three days give or take a day
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but it will probably be one of those
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days
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that i will hit the road
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and i'll probably be hitting the road
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pretty hard i'm leaning towards driving
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my car if not renting a car
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driving my own personal vehicle
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and what could
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appear to be looking like
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almost 10 weeks
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on the road
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holy cow even saying that out loud last
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road trip i did at the beginning of the
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year was seven weeks
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this next one could possibly be 10 weeks
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unless i just change it up and start
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flying but i don't really like flying
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that much
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i'd rather be in a car
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see in the great u.s of a added the fact
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that i did look up rental car prices
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they're a little pricey right now
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especially from going from point a to
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point b
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could still maybe do that and then if i
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get to an area where i'm just too far to
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drive
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back here hop a plane
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at the end of the tenure of that road
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trip
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so that is a possibility i love this
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little stretch of road through here
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and gas prices are fun right now that's
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not going to deter me or stop me
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from doing what i need to do getting out
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there
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on the open road but yeah
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that's gas prices are fun
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at the moment
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stated this before
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but in comparison to driving when i used
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to drive my van in my rv driving a small
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vehicle
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not that big of a deal so the gas prices
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still less than filling up a huge rv i
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am missing the small towns the back
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roads
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i always like to mix up
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what i throw up here on the channel
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maybe throw up not the appropriate word
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what i put here on the channel
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throat sounds kind of disgusting what i
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put out content-wise
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here on this channel
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try to have a plethora of content
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a mishmash if you will
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i say if you will a lot oh look there's
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a but we go over here there's a bunch of
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easter
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bunnies easter is right around the
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corner
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this house does it up for all the
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holidays
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they did
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st patrick's day recently
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they do christmas they do halloween
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yeah i love it
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there's a little bunny with eating a
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carrot
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it is very windy i'm sure the wind is
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affecting the
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microphone noise rainy windy
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the elements they have this classic car
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alert covered up simply because
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of the elements but there still are
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golfers out
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having their moment
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i've also been busy today
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taking care of the offer that i put out
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which is now completed and over that
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offer
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is not continuous
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it was a little
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overwhelming
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and the offer was now going to be
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referred to as
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voldemort
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it that shall not be named
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that's all i'll say but yeah this gummy
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it's got me pretty busy some guys
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oh looks like this tree has fallen
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what's the saying if a tree falls in the
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woods if you don't hear it does it make
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a sound
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that probably made a pretty good sound
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very gusty and windy the storm was
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through here earlier this is west park
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drive tell me this does not look like
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bushnell avenue in south pasadena
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they're very getting some bushnell vibes
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coming back to the future
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the tree george mcfly climbed up and
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biff's grandma's house
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the house from ghost dad all that
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south pasadena
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this gives me some monsters vibes i
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almost feel like i'm on a tram tour this
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is on the corner of starling
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and greenbrier ave i passed by here the
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other day
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i could not recall the cross street so
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this is
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also to jar my memory
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starling and greenbriar this is about as
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close
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to wisteria lane
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on the universal hollywood backlog as
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you can get
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where the burbs took place
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i could just you know just imagine
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i wanna you could have a tram going
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through here
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right back there you could be like
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1313 mockingbird lane home of the
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monsters
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they'll leave it to beaver house
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right up here on the right and this is
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where tom hanks walked out to get his
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newspaper
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when the newspaper boy threw
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the paper and knocked his coffee
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out
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of his hand
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doesn't it feel like a beam bar look at
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this
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i keep reiterating that i know but wow
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this road especially
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gosh i miss universal orlando oops i
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meant universal hollywood oh i missed
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universal orlando too but that's a whole
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other subject
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that i will not i won't be tackling
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right now
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oh deep subject
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i have a problem
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it's not really a
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it's a good problem to have in fact it
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is very beneficial
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to progress and
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feeling accomplished
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but my problem is repetition
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and force of habit
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hello
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and tunnel vision
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almost to the point
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like why do i film a video every day why
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do i go out why do i do this
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not for money
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i'm financially okay
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there's no reason for me to
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put videos out constantly
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to stay in tune with the audience for
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those that are watching
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to do it for my own well-being
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it could be both those things looking at
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the sky i don't know if this is the
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wisest decision going all the way to the
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far end of celebration
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because it might start downpouring
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before i get back over to my area
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however
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i really want to see this bridge up here
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very unique bridge to a new development
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a new expansion of celebration
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up here by another mile or two right at
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the cross streets of world drive
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theme parks are over there disney theme
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parks are that way
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is the celebration pond i put my
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kickstand up
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covered that subject before many years
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ago
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there's a lot of other things that have
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happened here in town
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they wouldn't really classify as happy
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there are some sad things and
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subject matters
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just like any area would have this pond
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is one of them
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and i'm noticing over there
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looks as if there's like a bike path
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oh i should ride over there look the
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bridge i'm going for is down that way
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and i'm always on the fence
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with other subject matters like since i
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live here should i cover some of the
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some of the stuff that's not really
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the best
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you know happy moments
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because every town has one and there's a
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few
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so maybe i'll do a video on those at
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some point
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but i don't know if that's the right
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thing to do with living here
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you know being a resident
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of this area if that should be something
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i should
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really put out there into the universe
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but maybe they'll give it some thought
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yeah a long time ago i brought an
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inflatable
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canoe out here
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my friend scott eugen him and i came out
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here
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into the shroud of nightfall
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and took that inflatable canoe and
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went around
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celebration pond here the infamous
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celebration pond
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it's probably been 10 years ago now
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gators in there
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probably wasn't the smartest thing to do
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but i've done a lot of dumb things in my
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life
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ah memories
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yeah where does this lead
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there are so many bike trails around
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here i have not excavated and explored
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yet
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and this is one of them
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it says boardwalks may be slippery
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at any time
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not only when wet just at any time
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remember the bon jovi album
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wow look at this this would be
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slightly horrifying to go down
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at night you know under darkness the sun
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goes down
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this is something
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i'm getting some michael myers halloween
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vibes through here just waiting for the
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shape to pop out at any time or one of
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these hedges
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this is like infinity
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of john carpenter halloween
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michael myers hedges
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and that's just the few that i've shown
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look back that way
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this is one of my new favorite things
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here in town that i just discovered last
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week
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this old timey looking bridge kind of
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reminds me of a route 66 railroad style
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bridge
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probably structurally
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doesn't even need to be made like this
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car's about to go through and go buy it
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but in reality you wouldn't really have
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to have this type of construction in
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this day and age i would guess
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but i like it
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kind of a throwback back to like
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americana era
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back in the day you know still drive
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small towns and stuff you go through
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bridges like this so this gives me that
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small town vibe and celebration even
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though it is a newer area
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created in 94 and this expansion
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which is just now being built there's
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new homes being built way down there
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definitely has that small town vibe
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okay let's talk about what i would
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consider my quote unquote
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problem
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slash
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blessing positive i'm looking at it as a
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positive thing being driven and have a
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purpose can't really classify that as a
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problem except when it starts to really
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get into taking over your life
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that is my problem
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the repetition
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of doing this i did i have a tattoo
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right here
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that i got after doing
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1911 days back in 2017 i
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quit
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to use that term lightly
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did a couple big
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road trips filming locations national
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lampoon's vacation for scott the gorn
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episode
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from star trek and then over months
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started to start peppering back vlogs
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back in
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and was probably doing about 300 ish per
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year up until this year 2022
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and now i am back on track i have not
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missed a day of filming
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and a lot of this you know tune out if
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you want because a lot of this is
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reiteration
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but basically the way i do things is i
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wake up every morning make the video
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live from the day before that's why i
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give the date at the beginning i've
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always kind of said and hinted at
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there is a difference between someone
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who uploads
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daily
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and a daily vlogger i consider myself a
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daily vlogger that's why i started
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putting the date stamp
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saying as the recording of this the date
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just to give a frame of reference that i
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am doing this for my own well-being
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and for yourself as the audience just to
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know that this is in real time even
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though it's delayed just a little bit
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because
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obviously it's not a live stream i don't
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do live streams
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but to film edit at night upload the
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next morning give that date stamp and it
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gives me a sense of purpose
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in some sort of a odd
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unusual way that is my problem because
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sometimes it is difficult for me to
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break
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routine and in order for me to break
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routine sometimes i have to just
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force myself to take a day off and
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basically the purpose of this video is
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to announce i need to take a day off and
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i will take a day off soon before my
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road trip possibly even a series of days
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i also have this weird tick in my brain
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when it comes to working and like i said
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use that term
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very loosely i am not throwing feed
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anymore i am not working at a grocery
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store like i once was but it still takes
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time out of my day there's a million
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things other things that i could be
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doing and probably should be doing
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sometimes and forcing myself
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to get out and keep the routine
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going and i've been asked many times by
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family and friends
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why don't you just take like a week off
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you can afford it you don't need to
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you have a
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stockpile of videos that you make money
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off of thousands of videos and get views
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so i'm doing just fine why do this
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because i feel like there is an end goal
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why am i going that way i need to turn
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around i need to turn around i feel like
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there is an end goal i'm doing a u-turn
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there's an end goal in sight
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and that end goal is
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to not do this
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at some point anymore
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50 is my goal the age of 50.
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have a little over two years on august
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10th i will turn 48.
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when i turn 50
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i don't want to do vlogs anymore
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so i'm stating this i've said this
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before but i'm really putting this back
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out onto the airwaves like ramon says we
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want the airwaves
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i don't want the airwaves i just want to
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announce it across the
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interwebs but when i'm 50
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i don't want to do this anymore we'll do
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something else
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and taking days off
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you know i can do three videos a week
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but then that delays me stopping this
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completely and finding another project
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doing another project
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so i'm just gonna keep staying the
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course might take a few days off i will
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take a few days off but nothing too
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extreme
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until i'm 50.
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that's my thoughts at the moment and
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from this bridge looking at that
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very iconic power pole over there
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i'm not going to say its name unless i'm
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going to the park so i try to always
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start but i'm on the other side of where
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i start the videos i shall drive over
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not drive i'll take my bike over there
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and show where that power pole
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whenever i go to the disney theme parks
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i always start there because that is the
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exit out of celebration down world drive
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so i'm on the other side not the back
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side of water the back side
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of that power pole and i4
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always bottlenecks right there what in
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the heck what are they gonna finish the
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construction
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look at that over there just complete
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bottleneck traffic
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traffic through here
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flowing with ease
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what will i do when i turn 50
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i'll cross that bridge when it gets here
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not that bridge i mean that's a bridge
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but it'll be a different bridge but i
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want to start a new project and i cannot
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commit because the way i'm i should be
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committed
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somewhere but
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i cannot commit to something unless i am
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in a hundred percent
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so that's why
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this at some point has to end
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so i can really get into 100 into my
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next project
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but nest that's over two years away
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that's my problem
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but it's a blessing so yes
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it's a double-edged sword
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i appreciate you listening to my little
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ramble
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and what will that project be when the
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goal when that goal is achieved
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i don't know
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could be start another band it could be
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to do a podcast
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could be to do
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who knows
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might be just completely drop off the
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internet
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forever but i want to be at the point
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you know two in two years and a few
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months
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i can have 700 plus more videos
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stockpiled
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into an arsenal
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that will continually make residuals
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almost like a musician gets residuals
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there are those who are very vocal and
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always will be vocal but they do not
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like a certain
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subject matter the way i approach things
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the way i present myself or
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or anything
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and frankly
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you know i have a pretty thick skin when
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it comes to things i've been doing this
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a long time
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over a decade 11 years or so
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but it does run its course after a while
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and it will be night i will celebrate
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the day
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when i don't have to deal with that when
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i don't have to have that small
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minute portion
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of very loud folks
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drawing opinions about every single
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thing i do because what i do
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will not be publicized will not be shown
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it'll be a celebration of sorts
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in a couple years
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so i have
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so i got that going for me
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to cool bill murray in cash oh no it's
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starting to sprinkle the wind's picking
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up
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oh that's not good there is the
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the retro
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looking art deco 711 and mickey d's over
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kind of gives me that old hollywood
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vibes it is starting to rain now and i
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am a couple miles
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from where i need to be
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oh goodness
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all right powering through
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i didn't bring an umbrella
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ooh going through here
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oh just someone on an electric
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skateboard
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it is
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that's cool
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i'll see you in the next video the vlog
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also
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not really a betting man
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wouldn't put a wager on it but
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if others out there we're wagering
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i wonder what the over under is that
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even a term
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like in vegas put odds down
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on if i'll really take a day off before
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my road trip because once i'm on the
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road trip i won't take any days off
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there's no point in taking days off on
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the road i'm out there to get to get the
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job done to see things to document stuff
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so i should be taking time off when i'm
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home
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what would the odds be
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on a vegas scale i mean i guess you
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could gamble outside vegas but
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will i take a day off i need to
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i just said all this and now i'm
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thinking
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am i gonna film a video tomorrow
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probably but if i don't
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you know why
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i'll see the next video the vlog
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is over thanks for listening the vlog
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is over